heal

why i always do something that make me feel regret on later
why it was and always been me the one who feel this kind of feeling
why i dont even know the way to prevent from all those thing happened
why always its me who been foolish all the time
why i never feel sense of responsibility although i lost count how much it was hurt
i have so much to say but why i cant say anything
the pain.it hurts like the hell
why it seem i never able to move on from the past
why must he appeared in my life 
why 
i lie to myself;.